Saturday, April 18, 2009

faces

Putting up fronts and switching faces, walking on eggshells. When will this pass?

Friday, April 10, 2009

Feeling Alone

Parents leave Sunday. I need friends. Its hard when the last year of my life has revolved around getting cancer out of my baby. I make people uncomfortable which makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't think the first moms group is going to work out well, but I will try. I really miss our friends in CT and MA. ANyway, so when my rents leave, I am alone with my daughter (My husband is too much in WoW to be considered "here".)

A woman asked me the other day as our children played together, "what do you like to do for fun?" Seems like a normal question. I gave her the most blank stare. I came home and talked with my husband about it. He doesn't even know what I like to do for fun. I thought more. Then found it was an easy question. I love to walk, bird watch, see new things, read maps (oddly enough), go new places, be outside, garden, plant things (reminds me I have to buy some herbs! and another pot), even if it is a new neighborhood. I love museums, but with my daughter I don't know if I could enjoy them as much. Anyway, so now I know what to say if anyone every asks me again.

Next visitor come in June. :(